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| So, it's my bridal shower this week. It seems really hard to believe. I'm kind of excited because it seems like there is going to be a good turn out, and not just the ladies from the church, but my friends are going to come, too. It makes me feel loved.  I'm kind of nervous, too. I do NOT like being the centre of attention. Sitting in a circle, everybody watching me, wearing some ridiculous white frilly thing on my head...oy! I know it will be fun. I got my registry all organized months ago. I have a feeling very few people are going to actually use it though. lol. Four things have been purchased this far and the shower's on thursday. As much as I would like things to be purchased from the list (that way I get what I want), if people give money (which a significant number are going to do) that may actually be more beneficial in the end. I feel guilty thinking about things like this though. lol. I can't help it. It doesn't really matter. When it comes right down to it, I'll be thrilled at the people who showed up period.
There is a bachelorette party in the works, too. I was a little bit more excited with that one for various reasons I won't go into. I'm feeling some slight pressure to go to a club or bar for dancing and stuff. I hate to sound like a boring old blanket, but that really does not sound like fun to me. Dancing in public is not something I feel comfortable with. I did it in London, but everyone gets a little uninhibited when they're on holiday. I'm the type of person who'd be happy to sit around someone's house and make drinks or go to a restaurant. Dancing and drinking...not so much my style. I was hoping James would vehemently disapprove of my going to a club, that way I could use it as an excuse.  Nope. He actually had the nerve to say 'I trust you. I want you to go out and have fun.' haha. Oh well. I'll sort that one out later. With all the uncertainty of when I am actually going to leave, there may not even be one.
I still cannot believe there's a shower for me this week. This whole marriage thing has been very surreal. It's not at all what I had expected, but things in life seldom are predictable.
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| Well, it has been quite some time since I have written anything on here and I don't have a lot of time at the moment, but I'll do my best. lol.
First of all...I'm engaged!! Who knew?! I am pleased to say that it has happened a lot sooner than I was going to give credit for. He is an old friend (one of the best I've ever had) and he is better than anything I could have hoped for. As to when we are getting married? Who knows. It's very up in the air. I'm starting to accept it. lol. Although it has been very frustrating at times. We've covered almost every week-end in may, some in april, we're aiming for June 1st, we've seriously considered eloping...argh! I am the type of girl who would like to plan a nice big wedding, but is too pragmatic to justify the cost, the energy, and the extra stress. Really...my dream wedding is to have me and my husband on this little beach in Monte Carlo. The only other people there would be parents and IMEDIATE family from both sides only (or in my case a best friend to compensate for lack of siblings). The ceremony would take place just before sunset. That's my favourite time to be at the beach. The waves start to calm down, there is a beautiful breeze cooling you down as the golden sun slips beneath the horizon. I cannot think of a better backdrop than the gorgeous blue of the Mediterranean sea. Just as light is fading, we say our "I do," pop open a bottle of champagne, share it amongst ourselves, take pictures (hopefully James would have the sense not to push me into the water in my beautiful wedding dress) then we'd depart for our honey moon. I want something simple, intimate and pure. I dread the distractions of planning and timing and worrying that none of my family break into fights or that someone feels snubbed because they weren't invited to a reception. That stuff is so irrelevant to the spiritual ceremony of matrimony.
Sometimes, I wish I had eloped when I went down to Georgia. Not for the lack of trying. It was quite sad, yet funny. I was crying, bottom lip pouting, some minor hyperventilating, looking at James with big sad eyes, pleading him to let me stay. He called me over and had me sit on his lap. haha. I must have looked like such a little girl. Anyway, he calmed me, talked some sense into me and came home. Just thinking about it reminds me that he is the one for me. No doubt.
Well I have a student coming so I'd better leave.
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| **Well, here's the song I did last sunday. I wore my new red dress. I looked quite lovely, I must say so. I put the track together in time and it went well. Oh yeah and props to Roger Federer for winning Wimbledon for the fourth time in a row!!! He is my new sweet heart and hope to get tickets to the Roger's Cup next month. So yeah.. here are the lyrics to the song I sang.**
The Pool of Bethesda
Drawing the weak to her side,
Seeking power they thought she'd provide.
They were weak, they were hurt, and were lost,
Longing for hope at all cost.
They couldn't believe that You were enough.
Yet you laid down your life out of love.
You are all,
And all of my dreams are so small.
You are all,
Now and forever.
They are waiting,
Putting their hopes on a star,
Wandering from where You are.
And You are waiting, too,
For us to start looking for You.
You are everything.
You're the reason that my heart can sing.
You are all,
And all of my dreams are so small.
You are all,
Now and forever.
They are empty,
And they search every face for a friend
To make things all better again.
Have we forgotten you?
Do we doubt that the cross was true?
I believe you are real and alive.
You're my love, you're my heart and my life.
You are all,
And all of my dreams are so small.
You are all,
Now and forever.
Copyright Sarah Moore 2006. | | |
| Words cannot express how much I love this song! It's an awesome trance song. It takes me so many different places.
The past few days have been excellent for getting me back into the inspiration groove. I don't have the same freedom to just plop down at the piano and jam. Or if I'm working on tracks on my computer, there's always a certain pair of eyes watching me from the living room. Even when I do play at the piano there are people sittin just six feet away. I find it very constricting. Long live the artistic temperament! lol
I'm working on writing a song for a friend. She wants to sing it at her sister's wedding. This is easy of course cuz I have a sister. NOT! lol Oh well, I like a challenge. I was mixing some nice loops too. Who would have thought that RnB beats, Classical Bass and Southern Rock Accoustic Guitar would blend so nicely. I love getting into that creative zone. It is SO freeing.
I got a call yesterday afternoon from the church to know if I could sing for them one sunday. Of course, which sunday? This sunday.  Oh. lol So I have till sunday to whip something together. No problem! lol I figured I'd see if I had any old ones I had never performed I could fall back on. I did and it's interesting! I wrote it over a year ago and never thought much of it, but it applies to my life right now SO much. It's awesome how God works. He instills something in your heart and even if it isn't relevant at the time, it's being saved for the right moment. Anyways I'm really excited about this song. I'll be singing it sunday night. Our services are broadcasted live over the internet now, so that'll daunting. I just have to figure out the chords and I'll be good.
Oh! I love music so much! lol.
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| Well I went to my Pilates class tonight. I haven't been in three weeks so it was kind of weird. My abs hurt, too. lol I wasn't going to sign up for the next session for the summer because I need to watch my money right now, but I had forgotten how much I enjoy it. There is so much emphasis on breathing and focusing on what you are doing that I can actually unwind and stop thinking about everything else. I really enjoy it.
I'm trying to return to a routine now that I'm back and the big trip is over. I don't know what to do. I mean I do, it's just going about it. I dunno. I'm ready for a real change. lol In the past five years, we have moved every year and a half. This is our third place. We have now been here a year and a half. lol. I'm ready to move. It's sad that I cannot settle. I thought that being away would help me appreciate what I have here more, but it didn't; quite the opposite, actually. I'm very restless now. It kind of sucks. lol.
Oh well... It was a good day all around. 
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